I miss my baby!!! I wish I was home with him. But figuring how I only have $5.90 in my bank account I really needed to come back to work.

It is kind of nice to be surrounded by adults and my friends here at work. But I also miss my time home with him. Oh well we got to do what we got to do.

My computer at home is broken, We had power surges the other day because of the storms we were having and my computer took a shit. And of course I have no money to fix it with right now!!!! Somehow I don't think $5.00 will cut it.

Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend.

I start work again on Monday.so depressing, I'm going to miss being home with the baby. I'm going back sooner than we had planned because we just can't do it anymore on his income alone. We are drowing over here. So hopefully we'll be able to catch up soon so we can at least go out to dinner or something. We haven't done anything in months!!

The hot water heater was acting up yesterday so I was not able to take a decent shower because there is no way that I can take a cold shower..it's just not possible. So I jumped in washed the necessary parts and jumped out pissed off and freezing. My daughter slept over my mom's house last night so it was just us and the baby which was nice. I was a little tired, I watched my nephew, he's a year and a half and I was chasing him around the house all day.
The baby slept wonderful last night he woke up once at 4:00 in the morning and then didn't wake up until 7:00. Awesome .

My sister brought my nephew again today. And then around 9:00 my doorbell rings, it's my step-father with my daughter. Apparantly she wanted to say hi to her baby brother before going to school so he decided to stop by my house..of course you know once she's here she isn't going to want to leave for school..so she stayed home.
So all day she has been complaining that my nephew keeps following her around the house, he's messing up her room, he's grabbing her toys..I'm about to burst.

My nephew was an angel yesterday...today on the other hand I don't know what is wrong with him. He knocked over a whole row of movies from the movie rack. Knocked over things on my computer desk, knocked over my keyboard. Didn't want to eat lunch, refused to take a nap and just walked around the house whining..Finally he passed out on the coach which is were he is at the moment. I am hoping he sleeps the rest of the afternoon!! So I took advantage, the water heater stopped acting up and I took a nice hot shower..

The only good child in this house right now is the newborn!!!

I will have my nephew tomorrow too..

Me and Alex don't fight at all which is great. I'm glad to finally have a relationship where I'm not always fighting. We do have ocassional discussions but that's normal. But I swear I almost knocked him upside his head on Sunday. We were sitting on the couch watching a movie and I was feeding the baby, I was trying to burp him but was having no succes, so Alex takes him to see if he can get one out of him, he succeeds and then goes to hand the baby back to me. I told him I didn't want him back, since he did such a great job, he should finish feeding him. I wasn't being completely serious I of course would have taken him back to finish. But Alex states..no you take him, it's my day off.. I almost fell over. I stayed looking at him with this you have got to be kidding me look. Then he's like What..What did I say?? I told him Oh nothing...don't worry. That's when I stopped talking to him and he knew that he had messed up. After I fed the baby he offered to go change the baby's diaper but I told him in my best sarcastic voice..no no, don't worry, go sit down it's your day off!!

I let him slide a little since I'm not back at work yet and I could technically sleep half the day if I wanted to, and he does help me out when he gets home from work. But when I start working again, he better not even think about uttering those words to me.."It's my day off!!" When do I get a day off!! I didn't stay mad for long because that just isn't possible with me and him because we have such a great relationship but he does have his moments.

I love being home with the baby but it really sucks to be missing my income. I just raided all of our piggy banks so that I can put gas in my car. I took $10.00 out of ours, $3.00 out of Taylor's and $3.00 out of the baby's. I don't lament taking $10.00 from ours but is it wrong to take from the children??? I'll put the money back in when I go back to work but I just feel guilty. We are struggling, Alex has been in a pissy mood the last couple of days because he's stressed out that we have no money. I told him I would go back to work on Monday but he is insistant that I at least stay another month at home with the baby so that he is at least two months old when we leave him with the babysitter. I told him that we tried to make it work but it just isn't happening that I should go back to work Monday but he saids no, that somehow we will make it work. So we'll see. Trust me I wish I didn't have to go back to work at all and could just stay home with him but it just isn't possible. And at $3.30 a gallon for gas, those $16.00 I stole from us won't get me very far!!